As my profile says, first and last girlfriend. That’s how I always name myself. But, never in our 8-year relationship, that I thought he’ll cheat on me. First and Last, never did I made sure there’ll be no one in between.

Our relationship had been on the rocks since the later part of January. I was feeling something very off and very wrong, but I kept the trust that I had always given him. 

It was exactly February 19th, everything was confirmed.

I was at work, this girl, I don’t know if she purposely sent me the messages that was meant for him. I cried at my station. At that same day, before receiving the suppose “wrong sent” message. We did fight, he somewhat made an ultimatum that never again I will see him, IF i’ll take his phone with me. So, I did not. 

From that day on. We did try to fix it. He didn’t say he was sorry. And, I didn’t even feel him guilty about what he did.

The whole month of march, he wants us to stop and break-up. He keeps on telling me to go find someone else. 

I didn’t let go. I love him. And, I’m stupid.

Our monthsary was every first of every month, the last time he greeted me was february, and after that, none.

Now, I think I can let him go.

It’s so sad that we had to part ways. Why did we last this long only to separate? I’m so tired of putting all the effort. I forgot that I was the girl, that I need to be taken care of.

Today’s May 9, Thursday. The last time I heard from him was monday, May 6. 

HOW ARE YOU? 

WHO WERE YOU WITH?

DID YOU THINK OF ME?

I’M SO WORRIED ABOUT YOU.

I want to properly talk things with him. But, secretly, I still hope we would still end up with each other. 

LOVE? It’s not in our hearts, it’s all in our mind. 

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How I wish everyone’s love story isn’t complicated. I mean, it can have problems, but not the one with third parties and such.

I don’t know how to give advices. I haven’t experienced them.

They ask me this and that. BUT, after all the words. They’ll just sigh and say: “You can never relate, you haven’t experienced this.”

I’m not saying this to brag.

We have our own problems in our relationship. It may not be a big deal to everyone, but its already as big as the galaxy for me. I’m not over-reacting, it’s the truth.

How much I adore everyone’s love story.

My friend tried to write my boyfriend and mine’s love story. Didn’t turned out good. Doesn’t have climax, doesn’t have conflicts.

Guess my love story isn’t movie-material. Hihi.

Anyways, to all those who are loving. Good luck. Love good. Life is Good. People, they’re the ones whose bad.

(Source: helloriks)

I wanna grow old with you.

This is not just a title of a song.

This is what I plan to do, starting… like right now.

(Source: helloriks)